"I set my own frame, I set my emotions, I set my pathway."

Hello.

I am back blogging, nothing much again but all I know is... Times flies REAL fast, like really speedy. Well, I'm already schooling in Nanyang Polytechnic where I really want to go but lucky for me that I didn't go in Singapore Polytechnic which I actually loved to go there & study Animation. But nah, what I guessed it's really a big different challenge when I'm actually now in Motion Graphics & Broadcast Design. Big-O-Challenge, yet... I really get sticky into this course, I had no idea why. Even lecturers & my family members felt that I'm really suited in such course than sticking to Animation path. Yes, I love Photography, not really design. But I want to do more of visual design, somehow God told me to go & trust my ways even if I can't forsee my future for this course. Yet slowly, I started to like it. :)

I came across a lot of happenings in school, emotion through people & choosing pathways that you can't really decide, one word - difficult.

My mind is filled with lots of vulgarities when comes to multi-tasking work. I can't seems to complete so many assignments at one shot, so what the heck?! It felt suicidal. I feel so bad for skipping work nowadays, and also my money has been flying away like nobody business when comes to buying materials. I can't possibly like... rely on my mom's money. How I REALLY wish I got an elder sibling, be it sister or brother, I just need a hand. Sigh. :(

I am really tired. Charles's assignment, James's Assignment, Miss Iris's Assignment & Integrated Assignment. How to complete everything by week 7?! :I

I need a getaway, explore my abilities that I can't see. I want to work fast, I wish everything is cooperative. It's like I need a full concentration in some Martial Art stuff. Oh gosh, rly. :/

Anyway, change topic. Haha, lol.

It's about my blog song, I like to listen back when I was in secondary school.

It tells what I feel over my "past" and now it's destroyed because I have my new vision & new heart. :)

Glass hailed from the sky that night
I couldn't hide to save my life
Standing drenched in open wounds
You took my hand and pulled me through

I want to give you everything I'll give you my all
Because you gave me, you gave me your lips a gentle kiss
The medicine to cure my pain
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/e/eyes_set_to_kill/give_you_my_all.html ]
Listen to all of this glass shatter
It pierced my ears and made them bleed
Now it sounds so beautiful, cause you're beautiful you're beautiful

I want to give you everything I'll give you my all
Because you gave me, you gave me your lips a gentle kiss
The medicine to cure my pain

I want to give you everything I'll give you my all
Because you gave me, you gave me your lips a gentle kiss
The medicine to cure my pain

fin.

Hello.


Awkward lately...


Speechless...

Yeah, I couldn't tolerate this anymore. I just hate it people thinks I'm feeling outcast when I already am, not even a true friend or someone will approach with a warm welcome anymore, why consider me into a group which I even tried to take a step forward saying "Hello" and everyone treats me like a wall or some rejection noun, lol. Count me out alright, I felt that I'm a friend of your past for nothing. Just because of the past, you push me away, hello... this is a new leaf and yet everything's turning dust to ashes. Don't even think I'm emotional, no why should I? I'm disappointed. Don't count me as I'm your old friend when I'm soon turning to a stranger. Let me tell you what cliques are meant for. It's something what made a group of friends turn up so close and memorable ORIGINALLY, I don't see why there's a new member inside unless you're saying majority hanged out often back in the past at some memorable places you guys used to hang out with, that's acceptable. But why should the new ones be included when we don't know the other half of the people, like seriously? Just count me as I'm your normal friend when I wasn't part of the group's story. Unless it's being naive and friendly to say hello that doesn't make any outcasted. So, what I know is nowadays people chose among their favourites, pretty unfair for the new ones or those who're not part of the story of the creation of the group. I just find it so hilarious, really. I'm upset, yeh I'm into the sarcasm disappointed side often. It screws me up most of the time. If I were YOU, I won't even leave the new ones left alone even s/he's boring or whatsoever downcasted, outcasted or shy. I won't even choose my friends, all of them are awesome. Even if there's such thing as one girl and a guy likes each other before, likewise FRIENDZONE for long time, we shouldn't be awkward and continue being close instead of remembering shits. Nobody likes being friendzone when they know they wanna keep the friendship, or else go for it. You call that maturity? Sorry, the inner-side is yet childish, move on instead of being friendzone or just go for that otherwise the relationship in-between gets way off and start all those sad dramatic parts in your life and calling yourself a loser, is that "courage"? Bullshit. You're not even a woman as woman, man as man. man as sissy, woman as getting slutty mode. Wait, subject's way off, perhaps I'm just mad over no-link-but-linked situations. lols.

C'mon seriously, it kills if someone really likes you as a friend, someone's new in your group, friendzone or whatever, you gotta be yourself so it won't affect other's personal side and you call them downcast or outcast for no reason, it's the affection of each other. I rather welcome everyone instead of choosing whoever whatsoever on whatabouts. I'm hinting you as I'm being nice not to hurt you anymore as you will confirm your judgement first again. Tired, really. Going back to the past is real hard, I rather you'll be the same person that everyone truly recognise instead of being someone I don't know. Get it? Link it together, you'll know what I mean. Thanks, bye. :)